There were thousands of them
Ready to crush me, defeat me,
Split me into pieces
Determined to ensure that I won’t
Ever be able to rise, get up, fight back,
Find my place and shine like sun.
They were strong and capable
Much more than what I thought
They were all together against me.
I would be lying if I say I was not scared;
Actually I was feeling awful.
All around myself I saw faces,
Grinning at my weakness, laughing at my misery.
Many of them were, once upon a time,
My well wishers, my so called friends.
I could see them clearly now.
I could not find a way to run-off.
I was surrounded all over by
Dark shadows, big pits
And my fall seemed to be sure
I cried, I wept, was not able to hold
My tears, rolling on my face
Filling those devilish pits to ensure
That I will drown soon….
…and be lost for ever.
Nobody will remember me in the days to come,
I’ll be extinct, gone forever
Without even as a small mark.
I was struggling to fight back
And defeat all those demons.
….and suddenly the thunder
And rain which were scaring me
And ready to drown me
Proved to be my friends
Because with them accompanied the lightening…
It was a streak, momentary but
Strong enough for me to see around
….and I saw what was important.
I saw that nobody could defeat me but myself.
I will lose only if I refuse to decide
To rise up, to try and give up.
I immediately knew that I need not
Rise to defeat others but to check my own strength.
I now knew that those grinning faces
Are actually motivating me to dig into my soul
And search for the hidden strength.
I had to realise the power of the innumerable blessings
That were with me,
I knew that the path was rough and the pits were deep….
…but they were not insurmountable
They were there to challenge me
I trembled, slipped, fell many times
But now I was sure that I’ll rise finally.
I had smelt the faith that people had in me.
I realised that I am in this situation
Because God knows that I can deal with it.
I wiped my tears and looked up.
I smiled at those surrounding me
And thanked them for helping me see within.